Ode to Mother

[jdmommd]

P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=centerOde to MotherP class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=center?xml:namespace prefix = o ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-comfficeffice" /o/oP class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=centerTrust me you don’t want to come insideP class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=centerIt gets ugly in here.P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=centerIt all started when my Mom had meP class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=centerShe fucking hated me and wished she hadn’t.P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=centerDrowning her children downP class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=centerto overcome the fearP class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=centerof dealing with herselfP class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=centerher past, her future,P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=centerhow she treated us and the empty fridge.P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=centerWhat a bitch, a selfish bitch.P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=centerFeed that addiction but not your children.P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=centerDon’t worry we won’t be around forever.P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=centerDon’t worry about me I’m fine.P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=center13 and pregnant, I’m alright.P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=centerYou taught me to take care of myself.P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=centerAll you have to do is open your mouth,P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=centerTake it down with a smileP class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=centerOr boys won’t like youP class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=centerAnd that’s what matters.P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=center“Men come first don’t you know that Jessy?SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes" [/color]P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=centerYour brother, my boyfriend, your 18 year old hubby.”P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=centerThat’s what you taught me Mom, thank you.P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=centerI couldn’t have gotten this far without you.P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=centerAll the way to ?xml:namespace prefix = st1 ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-comffice:smarttags" /st1:Statest1laceFlorida/st1lace/st1:State, P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=centerTaking my clothes off.P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=centerAll the way to st1:Cityst1laceNew York City/st1lace/st1:City,P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=centerAnd that one paid well.P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=centerRed lipstick and eight inch heels, P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=centerSoon I was sucking dick to pay the bills.P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=centerPowder in my nose and cum in my hands,P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=centerI was finally in my fairytale land;P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=centerAll I could have ever dreamed and more.P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=centerForget st1lacest1:PlaceNameBoston/st1:PlaceName st1:PlaceTypeUniversity/st1:PlaceType/st1lace, I want to be a whore.P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=centerClothes, money, cars, and vials,P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=centerParties, sex, clubs, and he’llP class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=centerPay for it all, just like he shouldP class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=centerFor that pussy cause it’s I style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal"that/I good.BRLiving in a paranoid panicP class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=centerI self destructed.P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=centerLiving in my alter-egoP class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=centerI killed myselfP class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=centerI lost it.P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=centerMy dream of being a whoreP class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=centerSlowly unraveledP class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=centerAnd it wasn’t long before I met rock bottom.P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=centerPimpless, broke, homeless, and hungryP class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=centerI returned back home to my Mommy.P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=centerNot too long after, I met a man.P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=centerHe hushed my crying lips and wiped my tears.P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=centerI quickly grew close to him like I had known him for yearsP class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=centerHe helped me to see that I wasn’t a whoreP class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=centerThat I was worthy of love and hell of a lot moreP class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=centerThat man is in each of us.P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=centerEven the bitch that inspired this poemP class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=centerHe will come first and I don’t even have to blow him.